Why I Run

Why I Run

I have never been a “natural athlete.” I have never had talents for the athletics, and I trip over air periodically.  Knowing this (I guess I was always a slow slothy child), my parents put me through vigorous athletic childhood.  I swam for 10 years (2 to 12 years old), and played tennis for almost just as long (though from end of elementary school through high school).  I also dabbled for a few years each in ballet, ice skating, tap dancing, Irish line dancing, precision jump roping (yes, this is a thing), and horseback riding. For 3 years in high school, I also ran a season of cross country (until I was taken out by knee injury senior year).

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Me Pretending To Be A Runner in High School

Having neurosurgery didn’t help with my motor skills, and I was clumsier than ever.  I had to regain my gross motor skills as well as my fine motor skills, beginning with simple motions of moving my fingers and relearning how to stand unassisted, to using eating utensils and walking. The human brain seems to have a miraculous ability to learn certain things, and I was hobbling around after a few days (though only few feet at a time), and I was able to use my chopsticks to bring my daily bowl of noodles to my mouth (I was unable to digest much else, always nauseous from the drugs).

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Me Pretending To Be A Tennis Player in High School

I had never liked running. I ran Cross Country in high school for the first 3 years, even making the Varsity Team for a little while (but it was mostly because we didn’t have enough runners to fill it up), but I hated most moments of it (except maybe when I was crossing the finish line in a 5K race).  I ran Cross Country not because I wanted to, but because I needed to prepare for the Tennis season in the spring.  I played tennis a few times a week at a private clinic over the winter season, when I did not play a sport at school, but during the fall, my parents decided that it was better for me to run to keep in shape, and only take one or two lessons a week.  Given I was in orchestra, taking private violin lessons weekly, and had a healthy load of AP classes, I don’t know how I managed to juggle my time.  It probably helped that I had no social life whatsoever, so it wasn’t like I was not already spending majority of my time out of the classroom in front of my computer.  My parents knew that if not forced via structured activities, I would remain sitting in front of the computer until I rotted into my chair.

In the beginning of this year, I made a conscious decision to lose weight and become more fit.  I had been gaining weight progressively for the past few years, and had reached my maximum weight. I felt tired and heavy, and couldn’t fit into my clothes. I was basically becoming sick of myself and the body I lived in.  So I decided to change it.  Running was the exercise of choice for me, because other than a gym membership (it was dead cold this winter) of $10/month, I could do it without equipment or classes. I did consider kickboxing and yoga (tried once), but in the end, the most convenient fell down to running; first in the gym, and then outside when weather started getting nicer. (But let’s get real: this is NYC, so it was 25 degrees few days ago. In April.)

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Me 40 Lbs Heavier But Having A Lot More Fun Than High School!

In March, I registered for The Aneurysm and AVM Foundation’s Annual 5K Walk in San Francisco. That was what tipped off a ripple. Once I made the decision to enter the walk and buy airplane tickets, I began chatting with The Aneurysm and AVM Foundation’s outreach personnel, and made a snap decision that I’m going to become a runner, and run actual races. Not “in a few years,” not “when I’m ready,” but this year, and A LOT OF MILES, to boot. This was where Steps for Burgundy: My 25 Race Mile Challenge for AVM Awareness came about. I am working on fundraising aspect, but I want to focus on the “awareness” aspect of the running for this year.

I will be running at least 25 miles in races for 2016, and starting out with 17.7 registered miles by the end of June.  Throughout the year (and hopefully for many years to come!), I will be blogging about my running and my races with photos and videos, and lots of enthusiasm. I can’t wait to have a tangible way of spreading awareness, while being excited for getting back into shape, because I’m sick and tired of feeling so sick and tired all the time!

I just ran my first 4 Mile Race a week ago, and it was AMAZING! I had never ran a 4 mile race before, even when I did Cross Country, and in the past decade, I hadn’t ran more than 2 or 3 miles outside at a time.  Somehow, I did pretty alright for a beginner runner (10:42 minutes / mile time for 4 miles), and had a lot of fun with my best friend. READ MY POST WITH PHOTOS AND VIDEO HERE:

The Facebook Page for Steps for Burgundy is running along as well (in case you want to follow us… wink wink): http://facebook.com/StepsForBurgundy

I recently read and enjoyed an autobiography by Haruki Murakami, on being a runner (he is a marathon runner and triathelon).  It was inspiring, and lifted my spirits before my first 4 Mile race. You can read a sample below, if you’re looking into running like I am.

What inspirations have you had recently to create a goal and stick with it?

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A Dreamer looking for direction in life. AVM and Brain Injury Survivor, working in NYC. Twitter. Facebook.

11 Comments

  • Carrie

    April 22, 2016 at 10:06 am Reply

    Kudos to you!! Please rub off on me. I am SO overweight and I’m not fit at all. I tried walking on the trail for at least 1.5 to 2 hours per day but then I got bored with that and I’m stuck again.

    Exercising does feel good but I need to be consistent and not give up so easily.

    Plus all of my bad eating habits don’t help at all.

    • K

      April 22, 2016 at 10:09 am Reply

      It’s really hard to get in the “rhythm”! I kind of “broke” my habit after a few months, of eating well and exercising, and now I’m having a lot of difficulty getting back into better eating. Walking on the trail sounds a lot of fun! I suggest you try listening to podcasts or audiobooks! Time flies when you’re otherwise entertained! 🙂 Good luck!!

  • Ashley

    April 25, 2016 at 9:07 pm Reply

    Oh my gosh you inspire me with your story. It sounds like you have been quite on a journey…but look at where you are now. It is great that you are fueling that energy into a goal such as running. I really want to get more active and my coworker and I am going to make it a new goal. I am so excited to see how much you accomplish with your races and to watch you excel your goal. I am proud of you! Keep it up!

    • K

      April 28, 2016 at 4:59 pm Reply

      Running is great because anyone can take it at their own pace. 🙂 I’m such an antsy person, so I’m usually looking for that instant gratification and instant progress, but I’m hoping to take this one consistently and slow!

  • Maroon Caludin

    May 6, 2016 at 3:19 pm Reply

    Sounds like an awesome experience! I’m glad you’re having fun with it too! I really should get in better shape myself.

    • K

      May 10, 2016 at 9:00 am Reply

      It’s never too late and nothing’s too little! Sometimes I only do some Blogilates 30 day challenge challenges, or run only 1 mile. But that’s 1 more mile or 1 more sit up than I would’ve done otherwise! 🙂 (Though a lot of days I don’t do anything at all except my daily activities, because I’ve come to realize how important rest when I feel like I need it is!)

  • Michelle

    May 10, 2016 at 12:36 am Reply

    My dog and my husband are my biggest inspirations, to be honest. I’m happy to know that they are in my life and I hope you continue to run and run regardless of the bad things that happen. Good things will always happen and we have to grasp them with all our hearts and hands. We must never let it go for we use those moments to keep going in the darkest of times.

    Glad you have awesome and inspiring experiences! <3 Love you girl! Adding you to my blog list!

    • K

      May 10, 2016 at 9:04 am Reply

      Hi Michelle!! 🙂 Yes- family’s always awesome for motivation and inspirations. I’ve been filling my running with external motivators (because I am no good with intrinsic motivations anymore, since my executive functioning is shot), like training groups and group runs and races, and I think they’re working. 🙂 When I know exactly where I need to be to get a workout, it’s much easier for me to be there and get that workout in. 🙂

      Added you in my links list too. ^_^ Glad to finally connect. Hehe.

  • Jamie

    May 11, 2016 at 11:28 pm Reply

    Honestly, congratulations on your first 4 mile run! I’ve never been known to be in the “be fit” category. I’ve tried my knack at running but I feel more that I can jog better than I can run. In fact, I had a P.E. class (intermediate walking) last semester, and I remember being my professor’s most improved student. I started off walking regularly until I saw the other classmates actually running and/or jogging. I was inspired to do the same instead of just walking and talking like the rest. I felt inspired by those around who were running and/or jogging and decided to help me along the way. They gave me strength to keep pushing forward. Even when I felt like I couldn’t run anymore because my sides were hurting. One classmate kept up with me for the entire semester, which I thought was pretty cool. By the way, your post has inspired me to talk about my health.

  • Erin

    May 28, 2016 at 11:56 pm Reply

    Congratulations on getting this far past your brain surgery! I know you will be able to keep going! Good luck on all 20-some miles! That is impressive! You are definitely someone to look up to! 🙂

  • Kya

    June 4, 2016 at 10:54 pm Reply

    That is so wonderful that you are doing that. 😀 I wish you all the best!

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